one of those realizations.

Last Saturday, I went to my best friend's place. we haven't seen each other for months so I was really excited to talk to her about things that happened to me when we're not together and vice versa. In the middle of our conversation, she said something stupid but I quickly realize what she really meant. She said "You can't just wait for that "best" man to cross your path and eventually fall in love with you. I believe in what Lupin said (for new borns, Lupin is an anime character. He steals really expensive things. beware of him by the way ^^-), you will never own the best unless you steal it because all the best things in this world are already owned by someone.". Let's admit it, it's true. you can't always get the best but still, I don't agree with her. Think about it. sure you can't always get the best but you don't need the best. What you need is simply someone who understands you and accept you for who you are. and for some reasons, I still believe in destiny. No matter how lame it was, I still believe that only God knows what's best for me. I trust Him.

By the way, when I got home, I watch television. It made me sick. Sometimes, I hate television shows. Specially those shows that have prizes such as Survivor, Big brother you name it. The contestants trade their integrity and reputation for money. they let the public invade thier privacy and judge them for the sake of bucks. The showbiz industry nowadays takes advantage of all the people who want to be in the business. In a world where everybody watches you and talks about you, you can't just tell them to shut up and mind their own business. because that's why your there. You ought to be talked about. You're there for entertainment. It really annoys me so I turned off the television and sleep instead.

...And finally, I lived happily. But not ever after...

what happened last tuesday. :)

last Tuesday, I have attended my UPCAT review at Prime Vantage Review Center at our school. At first, my day seemed ordinary-- I prayed, my mom prepared our breakfast and I did my own morning rituals. I'm confident though but there's one thing I'm little worried about: Rose ann, my friend who forced me to enroll at Prime Vantage is nowhere to be found. I've texted her and even call her but she's not answering.


Damn. what happened to her? I secretly panicked but I still manage to stay calm. I know this day will be a lucky day for me and I'll never let my worries ruined my day. Or so, I thought. when I entered ICSM- main, I already saw some familiar faces of the boys. I know they will be my classmate because I saw their name the day before. I'm searching for Rose ann but I have no luck. as time pass by, my hopes are fading I told myself, "no way. I will never be stuck with these boys!". I did everything inorder to calm myself. I already went to the guidance office and they told me to go upstairs and just do what I'm supposed to do because some of the girls are just late.


Late?!? they can't fool me. My instinct keeps telling me that I have to face my greatest fear. Well, looks like I have no choice so I've made my decision to go upstairs. When I entered the classroom, I know what I'd do. first, I approach one of the ladies at the corner-- they're the professors and told them that I was one of the reviewees. I expect them to say something long but they didn't. Instead, they told me to sit in one of the chairs far from where the boys are sitting. Wow. I'm lonely. I can feel their stares pentrating through my spine. So I get my cellphone out of my pocket and texted two of my friends but they reply late. I still pretend that I'm texting until one of the boys approach me and asked me if I was the only girl who will take the review. I knew him. he's my classmate when I was in 5th grade. Still hoping for Rose ann, I answered no.


Then the test began. yes. test. it's a pre-test, they probably want to see what we know. the first examination was english. great. I'm a little bit prepared for this one. As for Rose ann, I already lose hope and I didn't expect her to show up but she did! yeah! I did a little celebration in my mind. A welcome party probably. I feel comfortable finally.


I feel good for the rest of the day. At last. Thank God!


Now, I have regained my confidence in the clasroom. Although I'm not always reciting, I see to it that I really did a good job.